This morning while doing my morning prayers, I found myself unexpectedly praying for my brother. I know that God was reaching out to me at that point and letting me know that I needed to reach out on behalf of my brother because of all the chains that have hold of him right now. I wasn't planning to pray for him at all; we have had some major issues with each other for the past several years, but apparently, God had other plans for me this morning! Afterward, I realized that not only is my brother being worked over by the evil one, but so am I. I am because I allow this anger and resentment have control over me and the next thing I know, there's drama. Granted, in my heart I'm trying to stand up for my mother because I'm tired of her being stepped on and manipulated by things that my brother does, but it doesn't change the end result. This morning I prayed for God to give me the grace to deal with this situation better than I have been, and also that He gives both of my parents the strength to do what needs to be done.
I have *GOT* to learn to keep my focus on God instead of myself. Here lately I have been getting so easily frustrated by people's selfishness and rudeness and in turn, without even realizing it until it's too late, I have been reacting to it with selfishness and rudeness. Where does that get me? Nowhere. At the end of my day, I feel horrible, drained, heavy-hearted because I never intentionally set out to make my loved ones feel bad. I'm tired of making them feel that way, and I'm tired of making MYSELF feel that way as well. All I can say is that today is a new day, and a new start, and God has blessed me with His word and I know what He expects of me. Now to put it in action!
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Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Unexpected Prayers
This morning while doing my morning prayers, I found myself unexpectedly praying for my brother. I know that God was reaching out to me at that point and letting me know that I needed to reach out on behalf of my brother because of all the chains that have hold of him right now. I wasn't planning to pray for him at all; we have had some major issues with each other for the past several years, but apparently, God had other plans for me this morning! Afterward, I realized that not only is my brother being worked over by the evil one, but so am I. I am because I allow this anger and resentment have control over me and the next thing I know, there's drama. Granted, in my heart I'm trying to stand up for my mother because I'm tired of her being stepped on and manipulated by things that my brother does, but it doesn't change the end result. This morning I prayed for God to give me the grace to deal with this situation better than I have been, and also that He gives both of my parents the strength to do what needs to be done.
I have *GOT* to learn to keep my focus on God instead of myself. Here lately I have been getting so easily frustrated by people's selfishness and rudeness and in turn, without even realizing it until it's too late, I have been reacting to it with selfishness and rudeness. Where does that get me? Nowhere. At the end of my day, I feel horrible, drained, heavy-hearted because I never intentionally set out to make my loved ones feel bad. I'm tired of making them feel that way, and I'm tired of making MYSELF feel that way as well. All I can say is that today is a new day, and a new start, and God has blessed me with His word and I know what He expects of me. Now to put it in action!
I have *GOT* to learn to keep my focus on God instead of myself. Here lately I have been getting so easily frustrated by people's selfishness and rudeness and in turn, without even realizing it until it's too late, I have been reacting to it with selfishness and rudeness. Where does that get me? Nowhere. At the end of my day, I feel horrible, drained, heavy-hearted because I never intentionally set out to make my loved ones feel bad. I'm tired of making them feel that way, and I'm tired of making MYSELF feel that way as well. All I can say is that today is a new day, and a new start, and God has blessed me with His word and I know what He expects of me. Now to put it in action!
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