Love

This week has been long and rough. I was frustrated with so much. I prayed so often, every single morning, every single night, asking for some sort of relief. Everything seemed just too much to bear and it was taking its toll on me in more ways than one. I think that sometimes God answers in ways that we don't expect, so we think that our prayers have gone unanswered. But they were definitely answered, just not exactly in the way that I'd asked for.

I have to learn to be grateful for EVERY answered prayer, and to know that God is always hearing me, always helping me, and won't purposely allow me to suffer in vain in anything that I do. So... that pretty much sums up work!

Another issue I've been struggling with is my relationship with my sister, Charlotte. She frustrates me to no end because we don't see eye-to-eye on the way to do things. I have never been one to allow any one to walk all over me or treat me badly. I can be very kind, but if you treat me wrong, look out. When I see someone allowing themselves to be treated like that, it drives me to the brink of insanity and I get angry. I have GOT to stop doing that. Her life is her life, not mine. We don't do everything the same way. If I really think hard about it, Christ allowed people to treat Him badly as well. He suffered in silence. Sometimes I feel like the cross my sister carries is heavier than I can imagine. I certainly don't need to add any more weight to it. Lord, help me to love her the way she is and see the kindness and sweetness in her. Humble me and help me to let go of the unnecessary anger and replace it with love. Amen.

There is so much to work on in my life and I can't do it alone. Thank you, Lord, for being with me every step of the way.